“Schizophrenia is the cup of God’s fury”
Paranoid schizophrenia is extremely painful to all those afflicted by it. Every word and every sound is nervously analyzed by schizophrenics. Those afflicted by this illness are always on the lookout for threats and troubling messages. What makes this illness even harder is that there are wicked people in society who do make threats. Schizophrenics are constantly trying to figure out what is real and what is delusional. Without God and his word, those afflicted by this mental illness have no hope of living a happy life. Luckily for those suffering, I have found God and he has crowned me with knowledge and understanding.
The first thing I want to establish is that schizophrenia is a blessing from the Almighty. All the meek of the earth go to heaven. However, schizophrenics end up with an extra weight of glory. Compare it to sports. Many people play sports, but only a few end up playing in college or the pros. If you are a schizophrenic, you are a spiritual super star in the eyes of God. The more suffering you endure, the more praiseworthy you are. For me, everyday of my life was like being in a UFC fight. Everyday was filled with significant pain. Now, that my knowledge of God is 100 percent, my life is much easier. I want to help you find God, because his strength and favor is better than the drugs many people are taking.
The scripture that best describes what I am trying to explain is Psalms 66: 11-12 that says
“Thou broughtest us into the net: thou laidst affliction upon our loins. Thou hast caused men to ride over our heads; we went through fire and through water: but thou broughtest into a wealthy place.” This scripture is a perfect description of my life. Throughout my youth and into my 30’s I had absolutely nothing to say. When I was around people, they had cool and intelligent things to say, whereas I was always in pain. Maybe you can also relate to Psalms 39: 2 that says “I was dumb with silence, I held my peace, even from good; and my sorrow was stirred.” I was not only extremely quiet, but my enemies were exalted above me. Right now, you might be in a similar situation. You are despised and your enemies are exalted over you. The good news is that your situation is only temporary. As the last part of that scriptures describes, God has brought me out into a wealthy place. Not only do I live in a mansion, but God’s blessings in every area of my life are finally coming to pass.
After God decides how much he wants you to suffer, he is ready to heal you of your schizophrenia. Psalms 103: 3-4 says “Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies.” If you are suffering, hang in there. The day of the Lord is very near and Isaiah 61 will be fulfilled with my ministry. Unfortunately, you might have to suffer until the Lord establishes his kingdom on the earth. The day of the Lord is so close, there is a good chance it will be revealed within a year. I actually thought the day of the Lord was going to happen earlier than 2025, but regardless it is so close.
What makes my ministry so hard, is that no one is paying attention to my website or twitter page. Furthermore, the Lord has commanded me not to lift up or cause my voice to be heard in the street. Maybe, you can help spread the good news of Awakeafflictedjerusalem.com for me.
I want to continue to describe with the word of God, what schizophrenia is. Isaiah 51: 22 says “Thu saith thy Lord thy God, and thy God that pleadeth the cause of his people, Behold, I have taken out of thine hand the cup of trembling, even the dregs of the cup of my fury; thou shalt no more drink it again.” For me every conversation was something to freak out about. God would continually find circumstances or instances in which I was terrified by. Furthermore, I would hear voices which psychiatrists call auditory hallucinations. Anyways, I was constantly in fear. I was terrified both by God and by humans.
I have spoken a lot about how in today’s world, the righteous are often loners. I wanted to mention an additional verse in Isaiah regarding this. Isaiah 60: 15 says “Whereas thou hast been forsaken and hated so that no man went through thee, I will make thee an eternal excellency, a joy of many generations.” Schizophrenics are often hated by mankind. This is because our society loves flattery and rewards. The wicked follow after rewards and if the afflicted have nothing to offer they are hated. Furthermore, schizophrenics often come across as rude because they are in pain and this effects their ability to interact.
I want to talk more about the characteristics of the wicked, so you can separate delusional thoughts from the knowledge of God. In college, whenever I would wander out into the night life, I would be persecuted. Psalms 10: 2-3 “The wicked in his pride doth persecute the poor: let them be taken in the devices that they have imagined. For the wicked boasteth of his heart’s desire, and blesseth the coveteous, whom the Lord abhorreth." The wicked in this country hardly ever actually physically harm the afflicted. It is almost always just threats and insults. If you think someone is going to physically harm you, it is probably delusional. Unfortunately, the wicked are so hateful, it feels dangerous on occasion.
Schizophrenics are longing souls which have not been filled with the goodness and peace of God’s word. Instead, they are filled with the reproach of wicked and proud men. Psalms 123: 4 “Our soul is exceedingly filled with the scorning of those that are at ease, and with the contempt of the proud.” Your affliction is actually the protection of God. Without affliction, schizophrenics would have gone astray in some of the ways the wicked do. Hopefully, my ministry will as Psalms 107: 9-10 says “...satisfy the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness. Such as sit it darkness and in the shadow of death, being bound in affliction and iron.”
One thing that should give Schizophrenics peace, is that God and the wicked are very different. Before, the afflicted find God’s word, they believe the wicked are the good guys and they are the bad guys. Most schizophrenics view themselves as losers because this is what most people call them. I like the way Jeremiah describes the wicked in chapter 10: 8 “But they are altogether brutish and foolish: The stock is a doctrine of vanities.” The wicked are experts in vanity and schizophrenics are not. We come from two different worlds. While, the wicked study vanity and smooth talking, schizophrenics are drinking the cup of God’s fury. Unfortunately, schizophrenics often aren’t around people like them and being excluded from society, makes them think the wicked are the good guys. Again, the wicked are very good at flattery and social skills and because Schizophrenics are not, it causes them pain and sorrow. One scripture that should help Schizophrenics is Psalms 4:2 “O ye sons of men, how long will ye turn my glory into shame? How long will ye love vanity and seek after leasing Selah.” My counsel to schizophrenics and anyone suffering is pretty simple. Read God’s word and listen to him and not the wicked. As you read, you will realize God’s word compliments and exalts you. Whereas, God’s word condemns the wicked.
I wanted to leave the reader with one last verse that describes, the best, what paranoid schizophrenia was like for me. I don’t exactly know what Job went through in all his afflictions, but Job 6: 4 says “For the arrows of the Almighty are within me, the poison whereof drinketh up my spirit: the terrors of God do set themselves in array against me.” While, I still suffer in this way on occasion, I mainly experience peace and prosperity. I don’t how long God will make schizophrenics suffer, but it can’t be long based on messianic prophecy.